Today is the best day to be dumn
You know how, all your life, you would be advising someone about something, and when it's your turn, you end up doing the same shit you told them not to do. You pause for days trying to understand what actually happened, like, why did I do it? I did it? You fr?
Something similar happened to me. Although I can't say what it is, I wanted to rant about how dumb I am becoming by the hour, or I was always dumb to begin with, just discovering it as I grow older. Coming back to the point, so essentially I did something dumb, classifying it as dumb is a massive understatement. The worst part? It took 2-3 business days to understand the severity of what I did. Honestly, I don't even know what I feel now. I feel everything. By everything, I mean every possible way to feel miserable about myself. My anxiety is not helping me either. Normally, I would have handled this pretty well, but my anxiety had to fuk this up. I made the situation worse. But the other person is essentially so goated that they can understand that I am just emotionally immature.
I have always considered myself a bit more emotionally mature than my peers. Turns out that was not true coz I never explored. Meaning I was never really put in situations where I really needed to prove that I am emotionally mature. This is the one good thing out of everything that happened. I learned that I am emotionally immature, and I do not know how to act in certain situations. Well, I love learning, so we are good. Aight, boii boii